vicious
хочется писать и на английском и на русском хотя на русском я давно не писала
во первых я живу в новой зеландии уже третий год и схожу с ума. от того что у меня есть квартира машина работа но нет смысла в жизни. и я понимаю что в других странах каждодневная жизнь тяжелее и в этом тоже никакой радости нет но здесь я просто умираю со скуки
it's hard to type in Russian because I am at work and using an English keyboard though the thoughts flow better in Russian. How did I find websites like these back in the day? Not really sure, I feel like my creativity has decreased significantly lately
What is new:
- After the next therapy session I would have paid close to $800 and I am not even sure it was worthwhile? also if I can find that sort of money that means I could have easily spent it on something else.
- my iud got infected well for various reasons first of all I had issues with it already like getting BV but having multiple irregular partners probably didn't help especially sleeping with two guys within like 4 -5 hours
- I am back with Steve? Am I? He makes me question my reality tbh. Negative things I want to write down are:
we were outside some chinese place and he was trying to choose what to get and I kissed him on the cheek and on his ear which I don't think was out of place? or was it. and he goes like "ah this annoying should have dropped you off home" and then later at his house in the kitchen I asked if he thought it was annoying and he said "sometimes"
he sometimes goes into weird annoyed moods where it seems like I've done something or he doesn't want to be around me. I don't think that's normal? I sometimes look at him and feel there is a dark side to him and I can't quite place it because he can be very loving and affectionate and reassuring but I feel like when he is not in the mood he can be very snappy or mean. I think the way I can describe what he makes me feel like is insecure. It is the same feeling I had last year at times where I just wasn't sure what is going on and why he acting that way
во первых я живу в новой зеландии уже третий год и схожу с ума. от того что у меня есть квартира машина работа но нет смысла в жизни. и я понимаю что в других странах каждодневная жизнь тяжелее и в этом тоже никакой радости нет но здесь я просто умираю со скуки
it's hard to type in Russian because I am at work and using an English keyboard though the thoughts flow better in Russian. How did I find websites like these back in the day? Not really sure, I feel like my creativity has decreased significantly lately
What is new:
- After the next therapy session I would have paid close to $800 and I am not even sure it was worthwhile? also if I can find that sort of money that means I could have easily spent it on something else.
- my iud got infected well for various reasons first of all I had issues with it already like getting BV but having multiple irregular partners probably didn't help especially sleeping with two guys within like 4 -5 hours
- I am back with Steve? Am I? He makes me question my reality tbh. Negative things I want to write down are:
we were outside some chinese place and he was trying to choose what to get and I kissed him on the cheek and on his ear which I don't think was out of place? or was it. and he goes like "ah this annoying should have dropped you off home" and then later at his house in the kitchen I asked if he thought it was annoying and he said "sometimes"
he sometimes goes into weird annoyed moods where it seems like I've done something or he doesn't want to be around me. I don't think that's normal? I sometimes look at him and feel there is a dark side to him and I can't quite place it because he can be very loving and affectionate and reassuring but I feel like when he is not in the mood he can be very snappy or mean. I think the way I can describe what he makes me feel like is insecure. It is the same feeling I had last year at times where I just wasn't sure what is going on and why he acting that way