vicious
I'll work literally anywhere to work in North America even if I hate the job literally nothing can be worse than staying with parents. I am so over this "vacation", never fucking again. Sure, on the good days it's good and everyone is having fun but on the bad days it's so bad I wanna shoot myself and the good does not surpass the bad. I don't know what expectations my parents have but nothing that I really do is ever good enough and their views on life are so rigid and outdated it's beyond belief. And not like they want to change. I personally just want to have fun, have simple things in life like a job, a car, an apartment and just be happy. And surely I need money to sustain myself but I think I am coming to realization that if I have a meaningful job whether it's helping people or growing personally and learning new things that would be enough. I want to make choices without constantly being judged for them even if the choices I make are not good for my health or whatever it is, it is my choice in the end of the day and I will have to deal with the consequences.
Truly, as of right now, I want a job with a salary enough to pay my rent and keep me alive and that will at least lead to getting a real life career. Maybe it's a lot to ask for I don't know, what I do know is that I am so sick and tired of being financially dependent it is indescribable.
Yes, my job at Atimi sucked, but I also didn't know that things actually do get better, that having money is much much better than not having money and that you won't be stuck in the same job forever. Not sure why I take things as a finite stage of them but I am definitely on my way of fixing this. No matter how much I am bored of Vancouver it is forever and ever better than living with parents #anywhere.
PS: note to myself: re-read every time you think you hate Vancouver, re-read every time you think you hate your job, re-read every time you think it's a good idea to go visit parents for a month.
Truly, as of right now, I want a job with a salary enough to pay my rent and keep me alive and that will at least lead to getting a real life career. Maybe it's a lot to ask for I don't know, what I do know is that I am so sick and tired of being financially dependent it is indescribable.
Yes, my job at Atimi sucked, but I also didn't know that things actually do get better, that having money is much much better than not having money and that you won't be stuck in the same job forever. Not sure why I take things as a finite stage of them but I am definitely on my way of fixing this. No matter how much I am bored of Vancouver it is forever and ever better than living with parents #anywhere.
PS: note to myself: re-read every time you think you hate Vancouver, re-read every time you think you hate your job, re-read every time you think it's a good idea to go visit parents for a month.