I guess the realization I come to is that no one is going to love you more than your parents. And my parents can get pretty anal and annoying about things, but that unconditional unquestionable love comes only from them. Dogs count too but they are not humans.
I am not sure how and when and who taught me to get so deeply emotionally attached to people. Maybe part of comes from being a Scorpio, a very passionate sign who chooses people for a lifetime.
It just really hurts to know that I am not his priority while he is mine. And predicting into the future it really hurts to separate something that has grown into your life, like a vital organ getting removed, if it comes to that. I don't even see him that often and it just hurts so bad I can't remember the last time it did like this.